I am interrupting your regularly scheduled 31 Days installment to let you know that today, I’m sharing over at Kindred Grace. I am talking about a book a friend gave me that changed my view of parenting. Actually, it changed my view of myself as a parent, because if we are being honest here, and I hope you’ve come to expect that by now, I’ve never felt very good about the kind of mother I am.
I knew I was an introvert, but I couldn’t help feeling guilty when, by the end of the day, I just wanted them to be somewhere other than in my space. I felt so drained by the day-in and day-out with my own children, even though I loved and enjoyed them, that engaging other relationships was very difficult. I felt I didn’t have anything left for anyone else.
Even going to church was challenging. I had to wrangle children for three hours straight and still reach out to others. Family events and large group gatherings pushed me to the brink of panic. I felt overloaded with faces and snippets of conversation and the ever-present concern about where my children were at that very moment. I felt like motherhood was making me more an introvert than ever, and I felt incredibly guilty about it.
What was going on? You’ll have to jump over to my friends at Kindred Grace to find out. I hope you will. They’ll have a cozy chair waiting just for you.
Don’t worry–I’ll be back with Day 5 of our 31 Days series, From Enemy to Heir, a bit later. So grab a cup of coffee and go visiting. I think you’ll be glad for this little interruption.
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